I’ve always been scared of being alone. Afraid of not finding that someone who will stick around.
They say we all have our person, and that they’re waiting for us, somewhere… somehow.
But although most people meet their soulmate during their lifetime; The sad truth is they’re not always the person with whom we spend our lives.
It’s hard. It’s hard to know, to realize that you’re in front of the one person who will change your life forever. Because we are all hurting, and we are all afraid to open up and make ourselves vulnerable again.. just to get hurt.
Yeah, I’ve always been scared of being alone. But somehow I became strong, and somehow I learnt to like being alone. Until you showed up in my life, and your voice shook my entire world. And how I see or do things. And you made me believe in the things I never believed in before. Like soulmates.
You inspired me.. you hurt me, then healed me…
You broke me, then fixed me…
And I still loved you, and you still loved me.
But you’re now a thousand miles away, and I feel lost, empty, confused.
It’s like waking up in a public place everyday in socks, alone. Wondering what the hell I was thinking, baring myself like this, for all to see.
And it’s strange –
‘Cause sometimes I want to be surrounded by people.
But sometimes I don’t.
‘Cause sometimes I want to be alone.
But sometimes I don’t.
You reminded me of who I am, and only you could make sense of this hopeless clingy boy.
I know I can live without you. I just don’t wanna… I don’t ever wanna.
Because if you go, my happiness goes with you.
And then I’m left in socks, alone. Wondering what the hell I was thinking. Baring myself like this. For all to see.
JOEL POE ( Monday 28th, March, 2016)
